Part 5 · Chapter 6

First בכיה: Lack of Understanding in חכמה 0:00

Three, four, five, six. Six lines down. Six or seven lines, the ד׳. Another ד׳. All right. Right, that's where we are. That's where we are, right? Right. Okay. והנה יש בכיה למעלה What does it say after that? מזו. מזו והוא הבא מהעדר השגה מחמת עוצם ההפלאה והבדלת Okay, so he said like this, up to now we learned two kinds of things. There's the the בכיה, the first בכיה, the first one was the בכיה על העדר גילוי אור בנפשו, because he doesn't understand, מצד הסתר אלוקות.

Right. The next one is מעונג הנעלם שבחכמה, ומזה בא בחינת הביטול מעצמותו לגמרי, till he's totally cannot stand anything that goes against it. Right.

Second בכיה: חכמה’s Overwhelming Value 1:15

And this is מואס בחייו בתכלית הביטול האמיתי, ומליא בשמיא ואם הלכה פסוקה וכולו, כי ב׳ צדדים שקולים בשוה הן כנ״ל בד׳. And that's of חכמה. And there's a thing in in תש״ח, the פרידעקער רבי says that the real פנימיות חכמה, he says פנימיות חכמה is the כח מה of חכמה, it says in חסידות, but he says that's really the חיצוניות of the פנימיות חכמה. The real פנימיות חכמה is where he cannot stand that the whole world is not studying חסידות.

Right. Because it's standing in his way. He wants to go outside in, what do you call it, Times Square, and the big billboards will have חסידות on them. Right. And he says that's the real פנימיות חכמה, that he can't stand that the world is not studying חסידות, that's the real פנימיות חכמה. והנה יש בכיה למעלה מזו, even higher than this, והוא הבא מהעדר השגה מחמת עוצם ההפלאה והבדלת הערך, מפני שלא יכילו כלי מוחו וכולו.

And this is in בינה, not in חכמה, that he can In other words, the first one was the הפלאה that he feels how far away it is, and that's why there's the בכיה. Right. But he feels how far away it is from his seeing.

This one is that מהעדר ההשגה, the lack of understanding because the thing, not because he didn't understand it yet. The first one was that he didn't understand the whole the whole the first one was the בכיה from the lack of understanding into the into the explanation. Right. The second one is from the ערך ההפלאה of חכמה. Right. The third one, in other words, the lack of understanding in בינה awakens the second one, which is the ערך ההפלאה of חכמה, and the ערך ההפלאה of חכמה awakens the third one, which is now back to understanding, that now he understands that this is totally gone from him, מפני שלא יכילו כלי כלי מוחו וכולו.

It's not understandable. Right. Not that he didn't understand the explanation, he understood the explanation, fine. Right. To the point that he had the total הפלאה from it. Right. And now he sees that not it's not a thing that he's going to understand the explanations. He understood the explanation, but he's not going to understand the actual thing

because it won't fit in his brain, Right. no matter what he does. כמו זלגו עיניו כמו דרבי עקיבא בסודות עמוקות, when רבי עקיבא heard the סודות עמוקות, his eyes cried tears, שלא יוכל להכיל, because his brain couldn't take it in. Right. והוא בבחינת הפלאת סתימו דכל סתימין,

דהיינו בעצמות עין סוף ממש, אשר בלתי מושג כלל. You can't understand it, it's totally בלתי מושג. אדרבה, just opposite, כל שיעמיק יותר יותר יפלא. The more you look into it, the farther it is away, כנ״ל, like we explained before.

And even more than that, that actually, as far as the בינה, it's totally it's totally separate, even higher than the חכמה, that you have absolutely no בינה into it at all. Right. Zero. Absolute zero. שמזה דווקא ליבא דאיג ובכי, he says, why, I, I, but because, remember the whole thing of בינה, what does he want to understand? He wanted, he started learning חסידות, why? He wants to understand God.

ליבא דאיג ובכי שאינו בא רק מעצם התענוג והתשוקה להשיג ואינו יכול. Right. Means exactly the opposite. The same like the thing when when when his family went to the airport and they left. Right. The the great loss that he feels and he's crying is exactly the same thing of how much pleasure he had when they're there.

Right. וידוע שזהו עיקר בחינת הכלי לבחינת חכמה ברזין דאורייתא.

That's דווקא the the כלי for the חכמה of in רזין דאורייתא, which this חכמה comes after from the בינה, by the way. Right. It doesn't mean a חכמה of ביטול, it means of actually knowing.

Like the אריז"ל or something like that, or like the רבי. Right. כמו שמבואר במקום אחר בענין אין מוסרין רזי תורה, so he says, well how could you understand if it's not possible to understand? He says מוסרין, is given over. Huh? It's given over. It's given to him. He can't understand it, but the אויבערשטער can give it to him, because the אויבערשטער is the אויבערשטער. The אויבערשטער does understand it.

Right. It's not just that the אויבערשטער is the אויבערשטער, the אויבערשטער understands it. Right. In a way of an explanation. Right. Says, אין מוסרין רזי תורה אלא למי שלבו דואג בקרבו וכולי.

Somebody whose heart is worrying inside of him, how come he can't understand the אויבערשטער. And this all this, by the way, this can only happen through התבוננות. Right. You can't say, "Oh oh, I want to understand the אויבערשטער, this is a lie, I'm just starting in חסידות." Well, you told me yourself that it won't explain it anyway.

So it's not like that. These are three levels that come one from the other. Right. אבל כשהיה משיג לעצמות אור אין סוף ממש, but if he would be משיג, so דואג בקרבו, he is crying totally, that totally he has absolutely no השגה, zero השגה into the אויבערשטער, but if he was משיג to the עצמות אור אין סוף ממש, שם הוא ענין השמחה בעצמותו.

There the ענין is of the שמחה in the עצמות. When is that? When he understands the the the עצמות אור אין סוף ממש, means the עצמות ומהות of the אויבערשטער. Right. He says, so so he says, "What do you mean?" He says, "If he would understand." So he says, "What do you mean if he would understand?"

Since there can be a crying from the lack, the העדר of it, that העדר of it is the same thing like the שמחה, it's the same thing. Right. Like how much he misses the people, that's how much he enjoys the people.

Right. And and now he's saying, שם הוא ענין השמחה בעצמותו, ואף על פי שהוא גילוי העונג אלקי הבא במורגש דווקא, it's a שמחה, not a ביטול. And for שמחה of השגה, it's a תענוג מורגש. There's a difference, you know, the a ביטול is a תענוג לא מורגש like he said. He he doesn't feel that he's there, and even this he doesn't feel. Right. But this he does feel.

Right. אבל בשרשו, אבל שרשו באמת בעצמות התענוג הנעלם שממנו יצא היפוכו, this it's it's it's the same thing, שהוא הבכי וההעדר. שהוא הפלא והבדלה כנ"ל, that it's a thing that it is totally non-understandable. Right, כי ב' אלו שקולים, it's exactly the same thing.

What does it say after? גם כן? גם כן. גם כן בשוה ממש. The same like the other like we understood that that in the first בינה and in the ביטול of חכמה it's כולם שקולים בשוה ממש, so over here, the total lack of understanding because it's not understandable, and the total בכיה that he gets from this, and the total happiness that he would get if he would actually understand ממש the אויבערשטער himself, is שקולים בשוה ממש.

It's exactly the same thing. Right. דהיינו שלפי ערך כח עוצם וגודל התענוג שהיה מתענג בעצמות דווקא, שהיה משיגו ממש, how much he would enjoy himself and be so happy if he would actually understand, משיגו, ממש. Right. כך יומשך כח היפוכו, שיעור בכיה עמוקה, כשלא יכילו כלי מוחו להשיג, נו, ודאי. Right. והיינו הך, it's the same thing. The same thing like you understand in love. How much by love, how much he misses the people, that's how much he'll enjoy the people.

Right. Somebody he doesn't enjoy, he won't miss. And somebody he won't miss, he won't enjoy.

So the same thing over here. How much he would enjoy if he would understand the אייבערשטער ממש, that's how much he's crying for not understanding.

And this is only activated by the אפלאה of חכמה. Means בינה activates חכמה, and חכמה activates בינה again, but a higher בינה. And now he's going to give you the סדר המדרגות. And if the סדר המדרגות it's not that you you say, "Okay, well, I miss the אייבערשטער." No, it's the המדרגות.

The Ladder of Levels: בינה and חכמה Interaction 10:45

סדר המדרגות בדבר והפוכו כך הם. It has to be up and down like this. חדוה ושמחה מגילוי אור אלקי המושג ממש, means in explanation.

והפוכו יוצא בכיה בהסתר המנוגד לזה. Means that he doesn't understand the explanation quite good yet, cuz it's hard to understand. ולמעלה מזה, בבחינת בבחינת עונג וחדוה הנעלם שבכח מה דחכמה בעצמות אלקות המהוה, וכו'. וכח והפוכו יוצא למיאוס בחייו ובחיי כל זולתו. Not only his own life, he can't stand the whole world.

He can't stand anybody doing anything but learning חסידות. Right. Nothing matters, and he doesn't even care for nothing. He doesn't want to know from the angels, he doesn't want to know from nothing.

He doesn't want to If you tell him, "Well, why don't you calm down? We'll send you to heaven." He's like, "I don't want to go to heaven."

Right. ולמעלה ולמעלה, and even higher than this, גם זה העונג והחדוה עצמיות בעצמות אלקות דוקא, that's that's the חדוה. מה? ישמחו בך ממש בגילוי. They will actually have שמחה in the עצמות ממש in a revealed way, and in a way that they can actually explain.

In השגה. With an explanation. And say, "Where is the explanation?" Here it is. Right, this book is explanation. וכו'. כח והפוכו יוצא כאשר לא יכילו כלי מוחו להכיל. The opposite of, נגיד, of ישמחו בך ממש is when his brain cannot take it in. וכו', יבכה, then he will cry. וכמו בכיה דאוהב הנאמן בנפשו בהפרדו, בדוד ויונתן, like we were saying before like at the airport. Huh? כדוד כדוד.

Oh, כדוד ויונתן, like דוד ויונתן, דאהבת נפש אהבו, דכתיב, וישקו ויבכו. Since they were separated, they cried. Right. Why? Why did they cry? שבא מכח ריבוי אהבה בתענוג הגדול שביחודם ובדיבוקם וכו', that's how happy they were to be together כהאי גוונא. It's exactly the same thing.

Right. Okay, you know, the there's And that's דוקא the כלי for the השגה. That is the כלי. It's not just the כלי for the השגה, that is that is the השגה.

It's based on כוונה, שקוע בהן. In other words, that's the whole thing that we said in understanding. The power of understanding is that you don't understand.

That's the whole power of understanding. Unlike many other things.

In understanding, the whole power of understanding comes from not understanding. In other words, how much you realize that you don't understand something, that's how much you'll get a power to to do this התבוננות and to understand.

Like right now, why are we studying? Because we don't understand. Right. So, means, and what are we doing? We're doing התבוננות. The התבוננות is from not understanding. Right. Means בינה שבבינה, the power of בינה שבבינה which means פנימיות בינה, is the power of not understanding. Right. Exactly according to how much you think you don't understand, that's how much the power of בינה will be.

That's how strong the בינה will be. Right.

So that a person, you know, a person who thinks he understands everything, he's not going to so how much could there be already to understand by the אייבערשטער? Right.

You know, what could there be to understand already? And in general, I mean, you know, it's it's it's almost self-obvious that the power of of בינה is is the power that you don't understand. That's why you're learning. Right. The whole בינה שבבינה means to learn.

So, if if if I tell you, "I'm going to college," you say, "What are you learning there?" So, I'm I'm learning to be a doctor.

That means I don't know yet how to be a doctor. That's why I'm learning. I'm learning. Learning means you're learning what you don't understand. That's the whole thing of learning. Right.

So, exactly according to how much he doesn't understand in אלוקות, which in other words, when he learns חסידות, first there'll be the crying that he doesn't understand the the explanation because it's so hard to understand.

Then according to exactly according to how much he will understand, he will get a sense of how far. Right. Means he'll see that it's far away.

And that sense of how far will show him not that just it's hard to understand, but that it's impossible to understand. Not just impossible, it's not a understandable thing in the first place. Right. And this is the real that's the real power of בינה. And according to that, that awakens the power of בינה. Exactly according to how much he doesn't understand, that's how much he will understand.

Right. According to the negative power, like a bow and arrow. The more you pull the bow back, the far the farther the arrow will fly.

Right. So, if he pulls it back to the total non-understanding that there's absolutely zero understanding in בינה, this will go directly into what the zero understanding is in, the עצמות.

Right. And this is basically what there's a מאמר בלילה ההוא נדדה שנת המלך from the פרידעקער רבי. And he explains that the miracle

was, you know, there there when you say בלילה ההוא נדדה שנת המלך, you're supposed to say it louder. Right. Why? Because that was the essence of the whole miracle. Right. That אחשורוש couldn't sleep.

Mhm. So he so he says, "What does it mean? What about what happened before, you know, ושתי died, and wasn't the main miracle when אסתר became the queen?" Right. So, he explains in terms of חסידות that the that in the בלילה ההוא, in that גלות, Right. נדדה שנת המלך, when it says המלך in the מגילה, it's מלכו של עולם. Right. That the גלות is called דורמיסא דז"א.

The the the what? דורמיסא. דורמיטא, okay. דורמיטא. דורמיטא דז"א, the dormir, you know, to sleep. The sleeping of ז"א. The sleeping of זעיר אנפין. And when זעיר אנפין is sleeping, so everything is on a level. When a person is up, then the head is above, the feet are below.

When a person is sleeping, everything is on the same level. The feet the feet think they're the same level like the head. Right. Because they are, they're sleeping, you know? Right. And also the מדות are all mixed up. It's not The brain does not control the the the חג"ת and נה"י. Right. But it could be the opposite, and that's the whole ענין of dreams, is the dreams come from the liver.

Right. You know, that it comes from the נה"י, actually. The dreams come from the נה"י. And that's the whole ענין of a a dream, that it comes from the liver, that the liver is now on the same level, you know, there's three כלים, מוחא, ליבא, וכבדא. So the three כלים On the same level. When you stand up, the מוח is the highest, the לב is the next, and the כבד is the lowest.

When you're sleeping, it's all in the same level. Right. And the the the the the כבד can make up a whole bunch of dreams. Right. So, this is very nice. And the king woke up. And in the future, the redemption will come, משיח, and then the king will really wake up, because over there, he just נדדה שנת המלך, but then he went back to sleep.

Glory as Dream: King’s Sleep and Redemption 19:23

Just Right. He just got woken up for a little bit. Right. Then he went back to sleep. Right. But he says, "But that's all very nice. It's a very nice Kabbalistic explanation. But why does he have to sleep in the first place?" Right. After all, Why is he sleeping? Why is he sleeping? הנה לא ינום ולא יישן from earlier. Yeah, first of all, it says הנה לא ינום ולא יישן שומר ישראל, and then it says עורה, עורה, what is it?

עורה למה תישן or something like that. Wake up, אייבערשטער, why are you sleeping? Right. So the thing really, why is he sleeping? Right. So he explains, you know, it's it's the whole thing of the גלות is like a dream. It's the dream of זעיר אנפין, and in a dream can happen all kinds of crazy things.

Right. You know, you can open your door and you you walk out the door and you're in China. Right. And a tree can grow upside down.

You can have a green a tree growing from the from the roof, from from the ceiling, going down. Right. You can have all kinds of crazy things.

Right. But in שער היחוד he says, he explains where the dreams come and the then the the demons come and they mix up the letters from the daytime. It's only what you you you you you think in the day, you dream at night. Right. Then the demons mix it up and whatever. You take a letter from this word and a letter from that word and mix it all up.

Yeah. But he says in this book here he says, in in שער היחוד he says when you get to the dreams and the towards the end of the book, he says, but a פילא בקופא דמחטא you won't dream. Right. It's only things like in the daytime, but something totally ridiculous like a פילא בקופא דמחטא, you don't dream. The פריערדיקער רבי says, he brings up a quote from someplace, and he says, a פילא בקופא דמחטא, where could that happen?

Elephant in a Needle: Nightmares and Divine Paradox 21:17

Only in a dream. Only in a dream. He said, "What are you talking about? Didn't the מיטעלער רבי say, 'But a פילא בקופא דמחטא you don't dream?'" He says, "Yeah, that's where a dream is מהרהורי דליבא from the daytime. That's a normal dream." Right. But then there's nightmares. Right. Where the dream gets totally crazy, and it's nothing like the daytime anymore, Right. and you can already finally in a in a terrible nightmare that you already realize that you're in a nightmare.

Right. It's so terrible that you're already In a regular dream, you don't realize that you're dreaming. Right. It's a terrible nightmare, and the person wakes himself up, Right. because he can't take it anymore, because it's already so crazy

that it's he realizes it's a dream. Right. He says in a dream like this, where could a פילא go into a קופא דמחטא? Only in a dream. Right. Means in a nightmare. Right. In a nightmare an elephant can go בקופא דמחטא. And and he said, "And that's why

the אייבערשטער went to sleep." Why? Because he wanted to have a nightmare so we should end up in a in Europe and then in America finally.

And what can happen in a nightmare? The biggest thing, a פילא can go in the קופא דמחטא. Right. And also, you know, פילא, a פילא is the biggest animal, קופא דמחטא is the littlest thing, and also it means the roots of it is פילא is פלא, Right. and מחטא is חוטא.

That means that the אייבערשטער can go into the brain

of not even רבי עקיבא, but even a normal a חוטא, a רשע, like a totally like total American שוואנץ. Right. And where can that happen? You know, like there was a book, "Only in America." Right.

And that's why the that's the whole reason for the גלות, for the פילא בקופא דמחטא. What's the פילא בקופא דמחטא? This thing here that it can't fit in his brain. Right. Because it can't fit in his brain, not possible. How can you fit it in his brain? It's not possible to fit in his brain. He says, in America

you can do anything. You know? Everything is possible in America. This Yeah, this is America. You know, they told the פריערדיקער רבי, "This is America." Right. So, anyway, I'm going to have to stop over here.

Tool of Achievement: Embracing Total Lack 24:33

Over here is that that's the כלי. The כלי for that for the actual השגה into the עצמות is the total lack of השגה. Right. But but that the total lack of השגה

should be a felt thing in a way of a יש of בינה. Not even in the way of the אין of the הפלאה of חכמה, but in the way of a יש of בינה, which in order to do that, you have to learn חסידות first, like people Like everybody says, "Oh well, I don't understand, and I also don't understand nothing in אלוקות, so does that mean that I should understand אלוקות?"

is, no, because by you it's just a hidden thing that you don't understand אלוקות. Right. You have no idea that you ממש understand zero. Right. Absolutely zero. You have absolutely no השגה. Or as when you learn חסידות it's by way of השגה. You have nothing. השגה. You don't understand anything. השגה. Right, but the thing is that that's what it means when he says that the כלי מוחא is the כלי can't be מכיל, it's not that it's it's like even like like when you say פילא בקופא דמחטא there's a sort of a ערך still.

Right. But really it's not even like that, that the the כלי has absolutely no room at all to to take this thing in, and this thing is absolutely too big to go into anything. Right.

That's what that And and the thing is you have to have actual הרגש of this. Right. In the way of a יש, that you should actually feel how much you don't how much this thing is lacking in understanding. Right. And that's the כלי. In a way of השגה. In the way of השגה, and that's the כלי. A כלי, you know what's a כלי? A כלי is a vacuum.

The Glass as Empty Vessel 26:24

Right. The the the main thing of the of the glass is the emptiness. Right. You know? Not the body of the glass, the main thing of the כלי is its empty part. Right. And that's what it says like, you know, if you have a full כלי you can't put nothing into it. Right. That's the thing. Everybody has a full כלי.

Right. If you have the proper בינה, the real thing of בינה is that it's totally devoid of אלוקות. Right. Totally. It's the best כלי for אלוקות because it's totally empty from אלוקות. Right, that's why that's why a vacuum sucks. A vacuum sucks. A vacuum wants to be filled. Right. And not only that, that's the whole ענין of that's the whole ענין of of of בינה, that it wants to be filled with אלוקות.

Right. That's the main ענין of בינה. Right. That it wants to know the true nature of reality. Like even you see like by the scientist, you say that that's not really the thing of בינה to אלוקות, how come people are doing בינה into all kinds of other things? You see, what are they doing into? They want to know the true nature of reality. Right. That's the whole thing of בינה.

Right. They don't want to know just to know things, the real thing of בינה of a guy who's a מבין, the intellectual, is he wants to know the true nature of reality. Right. He doesn't want to know just some stupid thing.

Conclusion: Best כלי and Farewell 27:52

Right. So, that's the best כלי. Okay, I got to I got to say goodbye