Part 7 · Chapter 32

Physical Sensation of Desire in Chest and Lungs 0:04

שהוא בהבל החזה, which that is in the breath of the your chest, in other words in in your lungs, of how you're breathing. And you know, whether you feel like it's hot or cool or relaxed, הרי גם שם הרצון מאיר. Your רצון shines there. כמו רואים, we see שבהבל הלב גם כן מורגש הרצון, that you feel your רצון in your heart and in your lungs.

When you want something, it it has an effect physically on your body, and that's a big part of how you feel like a longing for something. You know, like you feel it in your chest.

ונקרא רעותא דליבא, and that's called the רצון of the heart. The inner רצון is revealed in the heart, like the inner revelation of the יחידה, the inner רצון, like the פינטעלע ייד, these kind of things are revealed like the רעותא דליבא. מה שלבו חפץ ומרגיש לדבר טוב ולמאוס בהעדר הרצון בלב דבר רע השנוא וכולי, which this is like that you see that the heart is drawn to something good, that it feels like a a yearning for it and is drawn towards it, and it despises and it you feel pulled away from something bad.

Following the Heart vs. Intellectual Reasoning 1:10

So, even if and this can come out even if intellectually intellectually don't feel the reason why anymore, or maybe never did feel the reason why consciously, but you can still have this inclination that, you know, my heart tells me, like, you know, they always say, follow your heart, let your heart decide. So even though, you know, it's not in a way it's not a Jewish thing and it's that doesn't make sense, when you let your heart decide you do what kinds of crazy things.

It doesn't mean that just whatever you feel you should do, but there's a certain thing, a certain level where your heart knows what you really want and what's really good, you know, even if you're not conscious of it. There's a certain feeling there.

But that's already a whole To understand the difference between the the the the רעותא דליבא and bad emotions is already a whole subject, and don't try this at home, folks. You know what I mean?

Like there was a thing with the הרבי רש״ב where he washed his hands a certain way, three times or something on each hand, and somebody asked him why he did that, and he said, "I don't know why, but I change my trained my body to always follow שולחן ערוך exactly, and so I know that if my body does it that way, then it it's that's the way you're supposed to do it.

This must be a reason, because it was..." Well, it's not That's even, in a way, more than what we're talking about here. Here, everybody has like every This is just like, you know, like you have a פינטעלע ייד. Every person has this inner feeling that they want to be connected to השם and stuff and do what's good, and they want to go away from bad, because their inner רצון, which maybe they're they messed up because their שכל isn't aware isn't doesn't understand it, and so they don't have the right כלים to be conscious of it, but they still have this inner yearning, or they don't see how they could get it or whatever, the different they convinced themselves that it's not שייך to them, but their inner yearning ever since they're a little kid, they always had this thing, they wanted to be a good, holy guy, like משה and אברהם, you know what I mean?

Innate Yearning to Connect with God from Childhood 2:31

There's a certain thing there, and even if they didn't learn about the these people, they want to be a person like that. אם כן, מיוחד ומתקשר ממקור הרצון העצמי עד הבל הלב ברגע אחת. That means that a person's inner רצון is connected to their heart. It connects all the way back up, the heart connects to the the רצון, the רצון connects to the heart, and it's like one shot, it goes from כאילו הוא מהות אחת ממש, as if it's one thing, ממש.

It's like it's like your body is like a living thing, you're like your conscious ממש there and you feel, you know, you ממש feel your רצון there. והיינו דמיון להבין באדם העליון, and this is like a comparison to understand the in the supernal man, שהוא בבחינת ז״א, which is the idea of ז״א דאצילות, which ז״א דאצילות is the of the way that that השם conducts the world, is like the חיצוניות of it, and the פנימיות of it is the מצות, the inner thing behind the מצות.

Divine Will in the Heart of Z'A 4:15

שבבחינת לב דז״א, which in the heart of ז״א, נאמר, ויאמר אל לבו, השם said to his heart. Right? This is talking about about the מבול, right?

That this is, in other words, when השם decides how to run the world, which is like the חיצוניות of the לב, he decides to destroy make a flood and destroy everybody, or he decides to, you know, recently we had these hurricanes and stuff. You know, so השם decides to do that in the heart, that's coming straight from the inner רצון.

It's ממש connected to the עצם רצון, and השם had בחירה and he chose to do that. And even though it goes through השתלשלות and שכל and whatever, but it's the end of the day, you know, because השם wanted to do it.

והטות לחסד, to turn it to חסד. וכן, and similarly if it says ויתעצב אל לבו, that השם regretted making man because he was bad, בבחינת דין, that's the side of דין.

וכהאי גוונא, הרי בבחינת חיצוניות הכלי דנצח והוד דלב, the external vessel of נצח and הוד of the heart, which is like the impulse to express it in good or bad, like to give people ברכות, or to make חס ושלום the opposite, like by the מבול, which was bad, שם בבחינת חיצוניות הלב דהכלי דנצח והוד זה מאיר שם מבחינת הרצון הפשוט העצמי בעצמותו אין סוף שלפני הצמצום הראשון, that we see ממש that השם is controlling these things, and that's one of the reasons why you see that the fact that it's not like a טבע thing, they can't scientists can't figure out how the world works in like a system, because it's not a system.

World Not a System but Divine Will 5:42

There's a certain level where it looks like a system, but then when you look really carefully it becomes more and more uncertain until they realize it really is just a רצון. And that is a ממש a גילוי of השם's inner רצון.

And it's all according to the inner plan for דירה בתחתונים and everything like that. It's all according to that inner רצון. And it's a גילוי of השם's inner רצון, you know, whether it's a big miracle and it's open, it's revealed, or whether it's not. But, you know, there's just a question whether you see it or not.

In a miracle, it's easier for you to see it, but really nature is a miracle that happens over and over again. That's all. You just you just think that it's normal, so you don't realize that it's really השם ממש doing whatever He wants, and there is no rules.

That's the whole thing of a miracle is that that you see that it's not running according to the rules. But it's really never running according to the rules, you just don't always appreciate it.

הנזכר באות י', which that we we talked about the the רצון פשוט עצמי in in chapter 10, בבחינת יחיד ואחד וכולי, in יחיד ואחד קדמון, במשל חפץ חסד העצמי בעצמות הנפש וכולי, in the משל of like the person's inner desire for kindness. So a person's inner desire for kindness, if they בעצם have this inner רצון for kindness, then when he sees a poor person he's going to have in his heart a feeling to help him.

Inner Desire for Kindness and Its Actions 6:42

ואם כן, עד בבחינת חיצוניות הלב דז"א נחשב ודאי נקרא מקום או זה עולם האין סוף, so all the way to the end of the vessels of

ז"א, אצילות, it's called still the end of the world of the אין סוף, that still revelation of the way that God conducts the world and whether He gives or doesn't give השפעה, you know, gives money and food and all these kind of things, we call that still the end of the world of אין סוף, that it's still controlled by השם, and and so it's still בגילוי that it's controlled by השם, משום דאיהו וגרמוהי חד, because He and His organs are one.

כמו באדם, just like in the person, שלבו ורצונו העצמי אחד הוא וכולי וכולי, that a person and his heart are are like one thing. That their inner רצון and their heart are like one מהות, that they're connected totally, and the one expresses the other exactly, both from up to down and from down to up.

That the רצון goes into the heart and the feeling of the heart goes all the way up to the inner רצון. The next chapter is going is a whole נמשל chapter, so we're going to make a ייחוד in the next chapter of everything from chapter 10 until now, and we're going to focus on the נמשל there.